Things Realized

Finally back home from an week-long vacation. Our flight from PR to MIA was late taking off which backed up everything. We were supposed to land at our home airport at 8:30p. We didnt land until 1030p, which meant we wouldn't get home until after 12a!

But I slept well (hallelujah!) and have been chatting with both my spouse and partner, which was building my anxiety. I need to be able to not people please and tell a partner that I am in the moment with this person. Speaking of being in the moment, I will likely mute all notifications on my phone from alerting me of things on my smart watch. I really need to just live.

The spouse asked why do I feel the need to have to respond immediately. I had to explain to her that I feel the need to respond because I feel i will forget to respond. I'm really forgetful therefore, I combat it by usually doing something asked immediately so that I dont have to remember it. Problem with that, if I'm working on something else to tend to another thing, I forget the original thing I was working on or I need 15 mins to get back to where I was in order to focus. So my muscle memory is to respond to a text msg nearly immediately, which is now very much a habit.  

Its one of the things I want to share with my partner today as we have a full day of catching up about our past week. So much to say and we will talk about it ☺️