Meh

The day started out like any other. I woke up, showered, got dressed, set in 1.25 hrs of traffic, worked, drove to chiropractor, ate a late lunch and came home. C and I talked a bit and then I went upstairs to watch a little TV. Before I knew it, I'd fallen asleep. Up to that point, i was feeling my usual, upbeat self. 

But since waking up, I can only best describe my mindset as 'meh'. I'm nmotivated to workout, unmotivated to run, unmotivated to study for this certification, hell unmotivated to watch TV. What is wrong with me? 

A couple guesses:

1. By only eating once today, my usual desires (fitness, etc...) have been thrown off 

2. I'm feeling anxious about the pending winter storm coming this weekend and basically had all plans canceled 

3. Same pending winter storm will likely delay my partner from getting back into town until early next week

3a. In delaying her return home, it means more time spent with her other partner

4. Wondering if I can endure C for the next 4-5 days while winter storm passes

I think all of these possibilities are weighing on me. My mind is in some kind of loop with all the doomsday thoughts of feeling unappreciated, no one fully understanding or getting me, and not feeling desired. I am really missing my partner something fierce 🫂

Meh

Stuck at home anxious

Hoping the winter weather 

Harmlessly passes

OMJ