I wished I had the answer. I genuinely live my ex partner and she loves me. But given how things have transpired, will I fully trust her again? It was a lot for me to choose to continue speaking to her on a regular basis following our breakup. In the past, I would've walked away, never to entertain even being her friend. But to date again knowing she still wants her 'happily ever after' person knowing I won't ever fit that description, is it worth it?
In my own head, I'm okay with the possibility of dating her again. But it will be on my terms. She's requested if we reignite our relationship, that i not date anyone else (other than my spouse). That's a hard 'NO' for me because whT incentive do I have to agree with that? She chose to end our relationship, not me! I chose not to date anyone else. In my opinion, she doesn't get to dictate that choice for me going forward.
And that's where we stand. It's like a pissing contest to see who will run out of pee first (lol). I don't see myself relenting on that boundary ever again and if I'm as important her as she says I am, she will have to be okay with that.
